Emotional Roller Coaster

    Sorry for not filling you in. It has been a busy emotional month. We had been told by our agency that 12 children would be available at the end of November. So this made me hopeful. I was feeling really excited and I compared it to the feeling of when you are just pregnant but it is too early to take a test. And every where you go and all you can think about is "am I pregnant?" or "baby".
    Then I phone MOT on Monday to make sure everything in our file is there and see if we are officially waiting. The answer was that they our still reviewing our file. I just felt like saying WHAT? I thought we were passed this point. I thought that we were further along. ugh that was a blow. but I was told they were reviewing it that day and would phone me back. Monday will be a week, still waiting for a phone call.
    Its hard to know when to phone and push for things to happen without being a pest.
     Later on Monday November 15 we got an email update from our program director. It was a monthly update. All of us in the adoption process have been longing to have update and communication from the agency for sometime. The update said that the baby house in Durban is up and running so this is a positive. But the negative is what sticks out at me. The 12 children available and the end of November has been pushed back to 1 or 2 referrals by the end of December. I'm not sure why? I don't understand. I think it is sucky. The update stated that they are hoping to have a lot of referrals in the beginning of the new year.
     There hasn't been any referrals since the world cup, which will be 6 months with no children coming home. blah is all i can say. Love Dilly